Ponder, ponder, ponder

I'm thinking about making a few changes in my life. Nothing big for now, but changes non-the-less. Cutting my hair off. Spending more time out at my dads place. Trying to patch things up.

I'm beginning to understand how important my family is to me. I hadn't realized before.
And I'm kind of glad that my plans to move to Waco fell through. I'm not sure how much longer I'll have with my family as I know it. I'd like the chance to enjoy it while it lasts.

You know... I kind of figured that I would be... married by now. Maybe have started on a family. But I think that it's good that I haven't. I've learned alot about myself.

1) I hate cleaning. I just do. I need to learn how to like it, I think, before I share a house and room with someone.
2) I hate living by myself. While I did have a roommate on the lease, she was never home. So I, in effect, lived by myself. I hated it. I grew up around noise and people. There was always someone around, no matter what. But for the last few months, its been just me and the dog.
I hate dogs, btw. I prefer cats :)
3) I cant cook very well. I've come to grips with the fact. I need to find someone to cook for me :P
4) Someday, I want to own a book store. Maybe after I have kids, and they go through highschool, but eventually, I would like to start my own bookstore, so that I can share the love I have for the written language with others.
5) I have learned to be content with the ebb and flow of people around me. Maybe not when I'm interacting with the personally, but being among them, hearing them... it makes me feel at peace. I'm very sure that I'm not meant to live a solitary life.

All in all, I've learned a fair bit about myself in the last few months. And, other than a few things, I'm content with myself :)